Fundamental Expressions

Any discovery about the Origin of the Universe, if as you are now is not included, is guess work, a work of fiction.Whatever is before you at this moment, that is, within the purview of your senses – apart from this enclosure, everything is memory, imagination, thinking.*Someone close to me died a few days ago, where he is now?He is in the field of your memory now. He is out of the field of your senses. But you can not throw him out of the field of your memory. Can you see this as a fact? Any explanation further than this will be a superimposition upon the fact.  

Once you see this, every moment become ‘live’. Wait for immortality does not entice you. As every moment comes out of the womb of not being. The timeless, endless process.

It is not because of more stress, more discomfort, more tenseness but because we feel so much relieved, satisfied, assured or want to feel secured, satisfied, assured by addition to possessions, relations, ideas that we do not recognize the fact that brain operates though contrasts only.

Instead of feeling the uneasiness, any problem creates within us, we seek diversion by fanciful ideas like, it is all one’s fate, future will be alright, God will take care and so on or we seek relief by entertainment, intoxications to bypass the feeling of uneasiness.To become aware of the diversion is to stop it.

No one consciously chooses disease, poverty, losses, conflicts.Then is it a punishment?Punishment foe what?

Any discomforting or irritating situation and uncertainty creates uneasiness in your nervous system. One tries to throw away this uneasiness by solacing explanations or by diversions like entertainments, religious-spiritual ideas. Mind is enamoured as if it will resolve this uneasiness. Unless this uneasiness is experienced ‘as it is’, energy is not concentrated. One becomes addicted to escapes. Loses contact with the Life energy.

We are consumed by compulsion and relief pattern in daily life. One does not see that this pattern, this inclination is the cause of all troubles.One is so much attached to ‘relief’ offered by holidays, entertainment, religious and spiritual activities that one’s other days, other activities automatically become ‘compulsive’. This divide does not let one see ‘what is True’.All complications arise for the individual as well as for the society as this divide is not seen, understood, solved. Once you notice your bondage to this pattern of compulsion – relief, fused state touches you.

Past, present and future are related in a tense mode. There is no way, this tension can be undone.You can not feel the comfort of amending the past (memory) now. You can not feel the comfort of solving the future (imagination) now. 

Can you see that any answer will satisfy or dissatisfy you, it can not go further. You have to see the format of life to see the complete picture.Whatever is before you at this moment, that is, within the purview of your senses – apart from this enclosure, everything is memory, imagination, thinking.This is the Total Field, the field of senses and the field of memory, imagination, thinking.This structure does not change wherever you may go, whatever may happen. It means this is the Original.The idea of God or ‘who created this Existence’ or what is the purpose of human existence’ and so on arises within this format, that is, as thinking. Seeing the Total Field is the end.

You can not feel the comfort of amending the past (memory) now. You can not feel the comfort of solving the future (imagination) now. This gap is uneasiness, tenseness, friction for the brain. The illusion becomes busy in covering up this friction as if to secure stable relief. To see that this friction can not be covered up or solved automatically attunes one to Now.

Once you do not run away from uneasiness generated from compulsion of work or from discomforting, irritating situations – your whole energy is here. You begin to see the meaning of your life, your existence from moment to moment. This is ever revealing. 

Whatever may be your genetic make up, one thing is common to all. You are essentially experiencing discomfort-relief from moment to moment.

Even if you are king of the world, desire to have more or tension that your securities may be lost will develop. Brain can not operate as psychologically relieved, whatever you may possess or know.

You can not feel the comfort of amending the past (memory) now. You can not feel the comfort of solving the future (imagination) now. This gap is uneasiness, tenseness, friction for the brain. The illusion becomes busy in covering up this friction as if to secure stable relief. To see that this friction can not be covered up or solved automatically attunes one to Now.

You experience life energy when you face insult, embarrassment. Do not runaway from this uneasiness. Original energy may take over.

The idea of Enlightenment is given by books or by others. Can you frame the fundamental issue? The answer to all your problems is given as God or Enlightenment by the religion. It is an answer. You have not solved the question yourself. Frame the question, solve it and you will reach at the answer. Then you may call it God or Enlightenment or whatever name you give to it. 

 Instead of feeling the pull of desire, instead of feeling the pull of contradictory thoughts that arise with the desire, we become busy in taking sides by condemning or justifying the desire. The process of desire is vitiated. Seeing the pull of desire, being with the pull without any ideation is the connection to the original energy.

One is not aware that one can question – ‘why one has to face pain and uncertainty’. One is under the illusion as if pain and uncertainty can be removed from the mind by addition to possessions, relations or by religious-spiritual ideas, activities and stability will come and stay. 

All sadness, confusion, fear, uncertainty is psychological discomfort, if you are not in immediate physical danger. To absorb this discomfort without any explanation, without any solacing diversion is the key.

No one can become psychologically immune. To acknowledge vulnerability is your connection to the Original.-- We think as if someone else or science and technology or future will relieve us from this discomfort. No body else can bear it for you. Nothing can be thrown out of the mind.--

We are consumed by compulsion and relief pattern in daily life. One does not see that this pattern, this inclination is the cause of all troubles.All complications arise for the individual as well as for the society as this divide is not seen, understood, solved. Once you notice your bondage to this pattern of compulsion – relief, fused state touches you.

 Can you see that there is essentially gap between what you want, what you like and what happens? You want to close the gap by using the idea of God. Once you see that this gap can not be undone, you begin to see the happenings as work of God. God is now a fact for you. It is endless exploration. You are attuned to wonder, to the limitless field. 

There are two types of people:Those who are religiously-spiritually inclined. --Their quest remains limited to their philosophies, after life theories and so on.  Now there are those who are not so inclined, finding resilience during losses, defame, relationship conflicts, disease is a big task. --

 Mind can not hold pleasure, relief, happiness. ---The issue of restless mind itself drops as this issue itself adds to the restlessness. The total ground is realised.

You can not come out of thinking and discuss 'about' thinking. There is no one thinking. (when you say-‘I am thinking’, this itself is thinking and not the source of thinking)‘I’ can refer to anything; can describe anything (‘I’ as subject and something or other as object). This is the process of thinking. Now ‘I’ comes under the illusion as if it is the source of thinking. Can you see that ‘I’ itself arises as a thought?

You have to feel settled, satisfied now in whatever situation you are. Even if it is extremely difficult situation, it is simply psychological discomfort-if it is not immediate physical danger. The error is that you want to remove, undo this discomfort, throw away this discomfort from your mind. 

It is to find ‘you’ as you are-desiring, wanting, anxious, continuously adjusting with others or environment, being insulted or praised, being hit by unexplainable failures or successes, stuck up in the maze of choices, actions and consequences and so on. This ‘as you are’ is the end of ‘you’. This facing oneself ‘as it is’ is like an explosion. The new mind is born. 

To see that we do not have control over our life, life situations, our own limitations, fragilities – is not to lose our power, but to instantly connect to the source of life. There is opening up to the limitless with this acknowledgment.  

The fundamental issue before man is-how to deal with, when he faces something which he does not like, finds irritating or when he is face to face with uncertainty, which he is unable to cover up.

Man’s search is for stability, stable relief, stable pleasure and so on where he is not perturbed by losses, accidents, diseases, conflicts (inner and outer). Even when he searches for God, Enlightenment, he is searching for stability. If you can come to this question – you are just close to the Truth. You will find it.

We want normal life as before Covid 19 as if it was a model life, perfect life. We forget that that life has led to Covid 19.

When the nervous system experiences this resistance, this pain – what you do, you try to throw the resistance out of you mind. There is no place to throw it. Once you see this, the whole energy is here.

Truth or God or Original is not knowledge. It is totality expressing from moment to moment-you and the world as a singular process-including what you like-dislike, fear or cherish. It is not knowing ‘what is’ that delivers but seeing ‘what is’ ‘as is’ without any escaping mechanism that connects you to the ground.

One who is interested in finding ‘what is True’ will not talk about God, ‘what God is’ but will inquire ‘why human beings have to bear pain and uncertainty’. He will encounter life directly ‘as it is’ and not run to comforting escapes to cover up his own uneasiness. In this process, ‘what is True’ is revealed.

The present scenario of total uncertainty (due to Covid 19 and so on) has shown you the vulnerability of human life. Noticing this vulnerability can connect you to the Original.

All doing, thinking is neurological, physiological process. The assertions - ‘I am thinking, I am doing’ are only the words to communicate. Thinking has overtaken as if it is the Total Field.

Face any unpleasant feeling or thought as it arises. Unpleasant feeling or thought arises only when you are otherwise safe and secured in the moment. Feeling or thought can not harm you. You are on the Original ground.

Life has not moved an inch away from accidents, diseases, losses despite advances in technology and other economic and scientific innovations. Death is still an enigma despite the fact that we have accepted it as inevitable. To explore this is fundamental inquiry.

The idea of Enlightenment is given by others or by books. Can you frame the fundamental issue? You think, things should happen as you want, no problems should tinker your mind. But you face resistance (pain and uncertainty), that is, discomforting, irritating situations. That is why you feel incomplete. And go on removing, undoing, solving the resistance by addition to possessions, religious-spiritual explanations. Can you take a different step?

You are attuned to Total knowing when you are comfortable with not knowing. You may plan an activity but what happens from moment to moment remains unpredictable. You want to feel relieved by knowing, by thinking about accomplishing, by thinking about result, about tomorrow. As this is not possible, complications arise. Once we see that this relief can not be secured, we become comfortable with uncertainty, ambiguity, confusion. Any action is now relaxed, conscious. One begins to see ‘what s True’.

Financial issue keeps the rich as well as the poor engaged, perplexed and sometimes terrified. We have not solved it despite the fact that we consider ourselves evolved (human) beings. We think more money will give psychological security, safety, stable relief. We think as if this relief, this safety can be stabilised. We do not come to this point but go on seeking, seeking stability. Instead of enjoying with money, we are stuck up in seeking stable relief. We want to cover up our fears, our uncertainties about money by thinking as if relief will come and stay. You have to bear the jerk that nothing can give you stable relief. Is this not dullness? The friction between this moment and the next gives momentum to life. The friction is unending. When you are relaxed in this moment, whatever be the situation, the image for the next moment (comfortable to you) is automatically created. This is the natural momentum on which brain works. When you are not at rest with this moment, you are trying to fix the next moment to your pattern of satisfaction. You miss the automation. You become busy in fighting an illusory battle. Unless you see this, you will continue to seek stable relief instead of enjoying. Life has evolved as more and more multi connected process. As you are not directly producing the goods and services you are using. We are using almost every thing produced by others. ‘You’ (every body) is dependent upon goods and services produced by others. You can not operate as separate, safe, secured, independent. In order to be in the world, in order to enjoy connectivity (which is life), in order to enjoy possessions, relations, situations-you have to absorb the resistance (fear, uncertainty) you face in daily life. ‘You are connected to the world’ is a singular structure, complete structure. Apart from immediate physical danger, all resistance is psychological discomfort. When you face anything wrong, negative, irritating-can you feel, bear this discomfort without any explanation as you are also connected in some way with the wrong, negative, irritating situation? You have made a dent in transforming your world. Now any action (or no-action) is relaxed, creative. You are on the total ground. Brain can not operate as psychologically secured, relieved-irrespective of what you have. Even if you are king of the world, fear that your securities may be disturbed or the tension to have something more will develop. The friction of psychological comfort-discomfort-comfort is operative element of the brain. Now you are settled in doing something, anything or nothing. Once you see this, your desire, what you want provides contrast to manifestation, to the new.

We think we suffer due to wrong karma, wrong decisions, wrong exercise of options. This calculation keeps us tied to ideas, explanations, theories. What impels us to do wrong karma and so on.  Can we blame ourselves or others? We remain trapped in these ideas.  Can we stop all explanations that arise to cover up the pain of unpleasant results, happenings, options? This stoppage throws us in the fluid field. Your will has meaning now. You have touched the Original.

Awakening is to see that there are no problems. We are happy in finding solutions to our problems. There seems to be no end. This is a trap in which the human mind is caught. When you understand that you are in a cage, the cage explodes open. We are under the illusion as if by solving our problems, we will come to a stable ground, we will remain happy. This wait does not let one touch the current of life. Can you notice the wait? Noticing ends the wait. Can you see that you are settled where ever you are (unless in immediate physical danger)? Once you are okay, settled where you are (except when you are in immediate physical danger). This settlement charges the brain to a new high. Wait for stability ends. When the wait is over, issue of problems is also over. Whole energy is gathered here. You act or not act and see what happens. This is the endless process of life. You have touched the current of life. You have to understand the problem making mechanism to end it. Any problem creates uneasiness in you. Mind says, ‘take me out of the problem, uneasiness’. Can one see that this is a new problem? And this problem raises its head every time one faces an unfavourable situation. To understand this (new) problem is to end it. The end of it is the end of the problem making mechanism. Mind is so overwhelmed by the promised relief as if relief will end the uneasiness. It tries to cover up the uneasiness with solaces. If this uneasiness ends, life ends. Once one sees this, the trouble as uneasiness, as problem is over. One has touched the current of life. It may be worded as supreme relaxation with unending friction (uneasiness) to operate.

‘What you face’ or ‘what is happening’ is not under your control-this is simple to understand. Realisation happens when you notice that what you ‘feel’, ‘experience’ is also not under your control. Words can only express what is being experienced. Pick a pen. A whole set of physiological and neurological movements are involved. Now the thinking – I have picked the pen – is expression through words.Thinking arises to explain. This is the limit of thinking.The actual movements – physiological and neurological happen.Put your hand in cold water. There is feeling in the body and brain. Now thought can express this feeling, it is not this feeling. When you can see that thought is only an expression of what is being experienced-you begin to see that thought is not the controller of impulses and movements in your body and brain. This suddenly transforms your whole experiencing structure. Now there is no escape from what is being experienced. Thought is not able to coin any relief, consolation as an escape from what is being experienced. You enter into a new dimension. The implication of this is like this. When the above fact is noticed, any expression like of sadness, confusion, stress, anger and so on – there is no one questioning the feeling of sadness, confusion and so on. Thought is unable to gloss over them. Energy remains concentrated.

You can not depend upon any body else, any activity, any practice, any theory to save you from facing, bearing unpleasant, irritating feelings. Unless you see that there is no escape, you can not touch the Original ground. One thinks as if possessions, relations, techniques can give one stability, stable relief. Can you see that you are already relieved unless in immediate physical danger? Now you may use possessions, operate with relations and so on to live. One feels threatened when one faces physical danger, danger to one’s life. Whole energy is concentrated in saving oneself from danger. Apart from immediate physical danger, all dangers are psychological discomforts. Can one see this? One feels threatened on facing psychological danger (loss, defame, relationship problems and so on) and reacts to run away from this discomfort by solaces, explanations. Energy is dissipated. Can one bear, absorb this threat as it arises? When you are alive, you can bear, absorb any psychological threat, discomfort. You are open to the limitless field.

Science misses the point when it depends upon the outer to phenomenon to understand the Original. It ignores the observer. It is only when the investigating mind becomes a matter of investigation that the Truth is revealed. World arises by your being conscious of it. You and the world is a singular process. Mind posits as if there is something 'other than' this process, something 'apart' from this process, simply to seek relief from what it does not like in this process. Object-the world is seen by the subject-the observer, mind. Now there is no observer of the observer. There is nothing behind the observation. 'Why there is no observer' or 'there may be an observer' are all expressions, thoughts arising in the mind. When this is clearly noticed, subject-object is seen as a singular, complete, self-sustained process. Eyes see because the vision is ended at a point. Even in the sky, where we have nothing to see as end. An end as blueness is created as sky to see. If there is no enclosing factor, what the eyes will see? Nothing. Similarly, ‘I’ is the limit of the mind, consciousness. ‘I’ is the enclosing factor. ‘I’ operates as ‘I’ relates to an object. ‘I’ and the outer, other is bound as a singular process, self-sustained process-the totality.

One thinks as if one has cleverly bypassed pain and uncertainty by religious-spiritual ideas, activities, by listening to talks on positive thinking, by reading self help books and so on. One has to simply notice that living is an auto process of discomfort (desire) -->relief (fulfillment) from moment to moment. Brain can not remain stably pleased, relieved. One is waylaid by the promises of stability, stable relief, hence frustration. One comes under the illusion as if someone else has comfortably solved the enigma of life. You are thinking as if relief, pleasure- experienced when a difficult problem is solved or by acquiring some possession-will be stablised. Brain can not operate as psychologically secured, relieved-irrespective of what you have. Even if you are king of the world, fear that your securities may be disturbed or the tension to have something more will develop. You feel pleasure, relief only against lack, desire, discomfort, uncertainty. Brain can not sustain stable pleasure, stable relief. It has to find some contrast (desire, problem, lack) to remain alive, to remain working. If you can notice this fact-fused state may touch you. You are now able to concentrate on what you want or want to do from moment to moment. The issue of staying happy, relieved, satisfied drops. Can you see that you are essentially at peace, you are essentially happy when not in immediate physical danger? This stability is not dependent upon any practice or theory. It is always with you. You are open to the limitless field.

We think as if Life has a solution, permanent solution. We remain trapped in solving our problems instead of living. Discomfort – relief is the moment to moment endless process. There is no stable relief whatever you may get, accomplish or know. This simple noticing concentrates your energy here, takes you to the Truth. Mind instantly converts any disturbing (not liked) situation into lack and seeks to satisfy this lack by theories, explanations, ideas (including the idea of God).This movement is superimposition upon 'what is'. To be aware of the superimposition is one's connection to the 'whole'. All psychological issues drop. There remain only actual, physical, material actions from moment to moment.

We Have to Work, Live and Enjoy. Where does Spirituality Come into Picture? Now you work as compulsion and seek relief through entertainments, intoxications, religious-spiritual ideas, activities. When you do anything as compulsion, you have to essentially seek relief through some other activities. Any irritating feeling you experience, mind runs to solaces or other reliefs. You become inclined to relief seeking, as if it will end the uneasiness of compulsion. Relief seeking becomes your purpose, aim. Religion-spirituality has also degenerated to the assumption that you have to work (as compulsion) and spirituality and so on will provide you practices, ideas for relief. All complications arise for the individual as well as for the society as this divide is not seen, understood, solved. Once you notice your bondage to this pattern of compulsion – relief, fused state touches you. What if something is presented to me in which I am disinterested? See the fact of disinterestedness; see the uneasiness disinterestedness is creating. Do not treat uneasiness as alien. Action emerges. Then either you do it or not do it. The side you take is hundred percent. You become conscious of doing or not doing it. You have become the creative impulse of the Universe.

Fundamental Understanding (Spirituality) is not a burden to understand. Then it will become another problem. God, soul and so on are the words coined to show that the Universe is Order. Though it may look chaotic, disorderly to you. It is a hit on the mind that what it does not like is also Order. This hit delivers you and not the words. Now every movement is seen as from Order to Order instead of from disorder to Order. Action is automatically relaxed and conscious. The feeling of friction-that things are okay (pleasure) and things are not okay (pain, uncertainty) is the sign of being alive. Can one see the arising of thoughts-‘things may not happen as ‘I’ wish’, ‘something untoward may happen’, ‘I’ may be cheated’ and so on? The uneasiness, these thoughts generate in the form of fear, insecurity can not be dealt with, escaped or undone. One escapes this uneasiness, the touch of the Original does not happen. One clings to relief, pleasure, laziness generated by any liked situation or happening. It is this clinging that is reciprocated as pain so that we may touch the Original ground, the fused state.

Everything is bound by the resistance of it. A building is standing because it is resisting its fall on the ground. A vehicle is moving as it is moving through tractive resistances. Electric current becomes usable because of resistances applied. Our brain operates because of continuous resistance of ‘pain and uncertainty’ it faces. The illusion sees as if the resistance can be or has been undone-hence dullness, decay. All pain and uncertainty is psychological discomfort (if it is not immediate physical danger). To acknowledge the discomfort, to absorb the discomfort ‘as it is’ is the key. Every time contrast (resistance) is being created between ‘what you want’ and ‘what happens or what you think should happen’. You have to be comfortable with this contrast, this gap, this discomfort, if you call it so. This contrasting process is life, it never stops. Once you see this - your desire, lack, discomfort provide contrast to the new, to manifestation. The error is that instead of bearing the ‘psychological discomfort’ – we gloss over it, cover it up, escape from it by solaces, consolations, by entertainments, intoxications, by religious-spiritual ideas, activities. Thus miss the new. The friction between this moment and the next gives momentum to life. The friction is unending. When you are relaxed in this moment, whatever be the situation, your image for the next moment (comfortable to you) is automatically created. This is the natural momentum on which brain works. When you are not at rest with this moment, you are trying to fix the next moment to your pattern. You miss the automation. You become busy in fighting an illusory battle.

Life has not moved an inch away from accidents, diseases, losses despite advances in technology and other economic and scientific innovations. Death is still an enigma despite the fact that we have accepted it as inevitable. To explore this is fundamental inquiry. One thinks as if science, economics or ideas about God will solve the issue. Can one see that any idea postpones the issue? There are those in whom these questions do not arise. They keep themselves adjusted with explanations. But if you have become so passionate about these questions, so serious about these questions that you want an answer ‘Now’. No explanation, religious or scientific is able to assuage the pain of these questions. You are bent upon. Suddenly, you realize that there is no one to answer. You are Alone. From whom you are seeking answers? Now you will touch the original pain, the original resistance, the original energy on which the Life is sustained. The need for answers suddenly drops; you become one with Life as it is. You touch the unending stream of Life. The mystery of existence starts unfolding.

Every action is experiment. It means there is a miraculous element between action and result. It is recognizing this element that supremely relaxes you, opens up to limitless possibilities. Connects one to the Original. Staying with ambiguity, uncertainty is discomforting for the mind. Once you rest with this discomfort – whole energy is here. You are on the magical ground. We avoid facing fundamental resistance which life presents to us time and again when we encounter discomforting, irritating situations. Why you have to face the resistance? Not the answer but simply being with the resistance ‘as it is’- is the key. If there is no resistance, there is no life. Once you see this, totality takes over. Now your desire, lack, discomfort provide contrast (resistance) to manifestation, to the new. There is essentially resistance, gap between what you imagine, what you want and what is going to happen, the result. Religion has tried to cover up this gap by explanations as God’s will, prayer, positive thinking, karma and so on. Can you see that no explanation can cover up this gap? Unless you are comfortable with this gap-you are living in illusory comfort, which is shattered time and again to let you explore. Staying with the gap instantly connects you to the limitless field.

Body decays and brain slows down not with the passage of time but when the auto renewal process is vitiated. And the auto renewal process is vitiated when brain is not interested (or less interested) in actual functioning, in actual usage, in actual interaction, with possessions, relations, situations, ideas from moment to moment but in seeking stable relief through them or becomes complacent in respect of possessions, relations and so on. Everything is bound by the resistance of it. A building is standing because it is resisting its fall on the ground. A vehicle is moving as it is moving through tractive resistances. Electric current becomes usable because of resistances applied. Our brain operates because of continuous resistance of ‘pain and uncertainty’ it faces. The illusion sees as if the resistance can be or has been undone-hence dullness, decay. We have been genetically and culturally conditioned to act, to think in certain way that smothers the natural friction on which brain is sustained. We think we have to remain pleased, relieved, satisfied all the time. One has become so much attached to ‘relief’ offered by holidays, entertainment, religious and spiritual activities that one’s other days, other activities automatically become ‘compulsive’. This divide dulls the natural friction. Instead of bearing the ‘psychological discomfort’ – we gloss over it, cover it up, escape from it by solaces, consolations, by entertainments, by religious-spiritual ideas, activities. (Apart from immediate physical danger, all discomforts – loss, defame, relationship problems) are psychological discomforts) Due to dependence upon religious-spiritual ideas, intoxications, entertainments and so on for relief, the capacity to absorb psychological discomforts is weakened. Dullness, decay sets in. When you are comfortable with any irritating feeling, ambiguity, uncertainty-the release of pleasure hormones (dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin) and stress hormones (cotrisol, adrenaline) is balanced. The balancing of these hormones renews the cells of body and brain. You are open to wonder now. Hormonal activity in the body is balanced not when you feel relief by solutions, by acquiring something or by accomplishment – but when you are amazed to see the outcome as if it is a result of your experiment. Your every action is experiment. Otherwise you are busy in fitting the outcome to some comforting explanations including religious-spiritual. You miss the thrill of which each moment is made. Decay sets in. You miss the touch of the Original. Title Image - From Govt. Art College, Chandigarh

Everything is bound by the resistance of it. A building is standing because it is resisting its fall on the ground. A vehicle is moving as it is moving through tractive resistances. Electric current becomes usable because of resistances applied. Our brain operates because of continuous resistance of ‘pain and uncertainty’ it faces. The illusion sees as if the resistance can be or has been undone-hence dullness, decay. You feel resistance – When you face confusing choices; When something unpalatable happens; When you feel uneasy, uncertain about the outcome of any action; When your relations do not behave as you want; When your ideas are challenged; When you commit some error and you are labelled as wrong. When the nervous system experiences this resistance, this pain – what you do, you try to throw the resistance out of you mind. There is no place to throw it. Once you see this, the whole energy is here. You deal with resistance: By complaining, blaming, feeling guilty; By introducing the idea of God or other religious-spiritual ideas; By consolations, solaces that things will be alright in future; By thinking that science or economics will solve this. Can one see that all dealing with the resistance simply postpones the issue? Can one face, absorb the resistance without any explanation, without any postponement? One wants to throw away the resistance (pain and uncertainty) which life is showing. This throwing away the resistance separates one from totality. Once the resistance is absorbed-total ground is realized. All pain and uncertainty is psychological discomfort (if it is not immediate physical danger). To acknowledge the discomfort, to absorb the discomfort ‘as it is’ is the key. Instead of bearing the ‘psychological discomfort’ – we gloss over it, cover it up, escape from it by solaces, consolations, by entertainments, intoxications, by religious-spiritual ideas, activities. Decay sets in.

In the context of present crisis: Whether you believe in God or deny it; Whether you are relying on scientific or economic explanations; Or any belief or ideas you are holding to explain away ‘what is happening’ – one thing is common to every human being. Though you are physically safe and secured in this moment, but are feeling psychologically insecured, unsafe. Can you see that all your running away to entertainments, religious-spiritual activities, holidays, intoxications has stopped? Can you see that all your diversion to solacing, consoling ideas has stopped? You are rested now but feeling uncertain about what is going to happen, what the future holds. When you resort to ‘positive thinking and so on’, your mind knows that there is fear, uncertainty but you are simply talking about positive by shying away from the feeling of fear, uncertainty. You can not cheat your own mind. This noticing is discomforting to the present mind. If you can rest with this discomfort, new mind is born. Energy is freed from fighting with this discomfort. You begin to SEE positive, the effortless solutions.

Man has invented physical conveniences. The physical resistances to living have reduced. But it is the psychological resistance which has not been understood. We think as if psychological resistance can be undone or removed. Mind has coined theories in the name of God or other religious-spiritual theories to explain away psychological resistance. It is absorbing the psychological resistance without any explanation that holds the key to seeing the Truth. You have to stop all explanations that arise to close the gap, to explain away the gap between what you want and what happens (liked or disliked). It is not that you have to learn something to see the Truth. You have to be ‘as you are’ (without any explanation) to see the Truth. It is to find ‘you’ as you are-desiring, wanting, anxious, continuously adjusting with others or environment, being insulted or praised, being hit by unexplainable failures or successes, stuck up in the maze of choices, actions and consequences and so on. This ‘as you are’ is the end of ‘you’. This facing oneself ‘as it is’ is like an explosion. The new mind is born. You are thinking as if some one else has comfortably solved the enigma of life, hoping as if dependence upon others will take you to the Truth. Unless this hope crashes, there is no chance of finding ‘what is True’. One lives in pain, uncertainty, amenable to disease, accident, losses and so on, raises the question – why he has to? One thinks as if science, economics or ideas about God will solve the issue. Can one see that any idea postpones the issue? There are those in whom these questions do not arise. They keep themselves adjusted with explanations. But if you have become so passionate about these questions, so serious about these questions that you want an answer ‘Now’. No explanation, religious or scientific is able to assuage the pain of these questions. You are bent upon. Suddenly, you realize that there is no one to answer. You are Alone. From whom you are seeking answers? It is not the inability to find the answer but seeing that all explanations postpone the issue. Now you will touch the original pain, the original resistance, the original energy on which the Life is sustained.

The present crisis has automatically put you in a position when you are physically safe and secured, but feeling psychologically insecured, unsafe. To acknowledge this insecurity, this unsafety, not to run away from this insecurity (by glossy explanations) is the key. We can not know – what the System of the Universe does – death, devastation, untold misery beyond all calculations. Our intellect is limited by complaining, blaming, feeling guilty, by hopes for the future, by scientific, economic explanations. Are we merely pawns in the hands of nature or the System of the universe? Can we stop being satisfied by any explanations, any postponement of the issue? Can we see that explanations simply give relief to the mind and bury the question? Can we hold ourselves in a no answer position, not as our inability but by seeing it as a fact? We are face to face with ‘what is’. There is no escape to any comforting explanation. You begin to see ‘what is True’. On facing an unpalatable situation (as the present crisis) - negative thoughts, depressive thoughts, doomsday prediction thoughts do come to the mind. We begin to seek relief from the uneasiness, these thoughts generate. Can you just see them as they are? Negativity begins to dissolve. You land on the magical ground. What can one do in the present crisis? Any action (however small it may be) adds to the solution. The point to understand is the pain, uneasiness, confusion-you are experiencing and not the hope, solace that things will become alright in future. One escapes ‘action’ by this diversion of hope. In any situation, one has to act and see ‘what happens’. Why not hope? Hope is in built in your action, harping about it dissipates the energy.

We are carried away by what others are doing, achieving. We think as if they have solved the enigma of life and are living psychologically comfortable. We think as if there is some permanent solution. Once we see this, we are face to face with pain and uncertainty we are facing. Whole energy is concentrated here. You want to resolve the mystery of existence or you think by coining the ideas of God and so on you have resolved it. What happens or what you face makes you perplexed time and again as you are not able to coin any satisfactory explanation for what is happening. Can you absorb the perplexion, dissatisfaction without any explanation not by showing your inability to resolve but by seeing that all explanations postpone the issue. You are face to face with ‘what is’. Living is superficial when you are consoling yourself or others. Living is superficial when you complain, blame, feel guilty. Facing ‘what is’ ‘as is’ is concentration of total energy. You are on the magical ground.

Body and brain require food and sleep to recharge and remain conscious. This is complete, sufficient in itself. Now any feeling of insufficiency is psychological only. Can one see this? Can one just come to this point that though one is physically safe and secured in the moment, yet feeling uncomfortable due to thoughts about tomorrow, about relations with others, about some unexplainable positive or negative happening, about not finding solution to some problem and so on? Can one feel this uncomfortableness, this uneasiness, this pain, as it is, that is, without any idea, explanation. This uncomfortableness is about something, which is not Now. At this moment, you have no option but to bear this. You will see that mind is running to comforting ideas to escape this uneasiness. You can not enjoy the comfort of being satisfied about something, which is not Now. To seek this comfort is the illusion. Seeing the illusoriness of this comfort grounds one to Now. Suddenly, mind is relieved of the whole burden of securing this comfort. Supreme relaxation takes over.

We think as if completion will come in time as if now is incomplete and future will become complete. Mind is under the illusion as if uneasiness generated due to anger, fear, confusion, uncertainty can be removed from the mind and one can remain relieved, pleased. Anger, fear, confusion of conflicting options show that logic of the mind has failed or is not working. If one is comfortable with the uneasiness generated due to anger, fear, confusion and so on, whole energy is concentrated here and now. When your logic, your reasoning, your comfort zone, your conclusion is shattered, see what happens. It creates feeling of uneasiness in you. Now you try to escape this uneasiness, this pain by ideas, explanations, by complaining, blaming, feeling guilty. Can you close the escape route? The whole energy is concentrated here. Any action is relaxed and conscious. We are not moving from disorder to order, but from order to order. This clarity relieves the mind. Now any action is creation. Otherwise we are fighting within and with the outside world as if order will come one day (illusion) and stabilise. All our actions become reactions. We see disorder outside. We can take action. Mind is enamoured as if by dealing with outside disorder, order within will be established-one will be happy. But within you there can be no disorder. Even if you perceive disturbance within, it is ‘you’- it is in the field accessible to you only. The disturbance within is in the format, which can not be acted upon. If you see this, supreme relaxation takes over. Now you can take action in respect of the outer disorder.

 You have to bear the jerk that whatever has manifested (liked or disliked) is also what you wanted, that is, you have to be comfortable with the uneasiness between ‘what is’ and ‘what you think should be’ without any explanation.Things do not happen as you wish. Thoughts, apprehensions do come to your mind, which you do not like. It means the ‘wishing entity’ is not in control. It means ‘wishing’ and ‘happening’ are related in a frictional mode. Can you feel this friction, this pain without any explanation? Every moment, two possibilities exist. Something you want may happen or it may not happen. You want to remove the possibility of ‘may not happen’ by ideas, explanations. You want to enjoy the relief of undoing this possibility. You have to be silent about this possibility. Your imagination opens up.You can not experience anything without contrast. You can experience certainty against uncertainty, pleasure, relief against pain, discomfort, clarity against ambiguity, what you get against what you want and so on. Every time contrast is being created between ‘what you want’ and ‘what happens or what you think should happen’. You have to be comfortable with this contrast, this gap, this discomfort, if you call it so. This contrasting process is life, it never stops. Once you notice this, you are on the Original ground.The comfortableness with contrast puts you on the fluid ground, the ground of all possibilities.

We are living on our fears, but do not acknowledge this fact. Life has become so conditioned that we instinctively shy away from our fears and want to remain relieved, pleased. We always remain inclined to suppress our fears by explanations. ‘If you do not study hard, you will not get good marks and then a good job. In your job, boss wants your targets to be completed. In your business, competitor may take the edge. Environment pollution will adversely affect human beings. Fear that nuclear war may wipe out human beings. If you do not follow law, you will be punished. Your neighbor has latest devices and so on and you have lagged behind. Fear of God, if you do not follow religion or other good advices. If you do not take care of your eating and exercise or other health habits – you will get ill or will get some disease. Fear that your spouse might cheat on you. Fear that your account may be hacked; fear that you may be cheated in online transactions and so on.’ Life has become so conditioned that we instinctively shy away from our fears and want to remain relieved, pleased. All our daily activities are geared to cover up our fears. Can you see that all fears are psychological discomforts? We always remain inclined to suppress our fears by explanations. Can you absorb this discomfort as it is? You are attuned to supreme relaxation with unending friction to operate. Any action is relaxed, conscious now. You begin to see ‘what is True’.

By coining the idea of God and so on, one thinks as if one has solved the basic human predicament – ‘why something happens which one dislikes, which is irritating, shocking.’ The avoidance of psychological discomfort is laziness, is the fundamental error which keeps us trapped. We avoid, gloss over the discomfort of uncertainty, discomfort of unpleasant response, discomfort of unpleasant thoughts that hit the mid, discomfort any confusing situation creates within us. The avoidance of this discomfort is laziness, is the fundamental error which keeps us trapped. Can you see that the discomfort is only psychological discomfort? Bearing is automatic, once you notice this. Nothing is to be done. The whole energy is here. All techniques, ideas, devices to run away from this discomfort may give relief. You become attached to that technique, idea and so on. Energy remains dissipated in seeking relief. By coining the idea of God or by techniques, ideas one thinks as if one has solved the basic human predicament – ‘why something happens which one dislikes, which is irritating, shocking.’ The basic human predicament can not be solved by any explanation but is rested when you notice it. When the nervous system experiences this predicament, this resistance, this discomfort, this pain – what you do, you try to throw the resistance out of you mind. There is no place to throw it. Once you see this, the whole energy is here.

Why human beings have to suffer? We do not question suffering. We do not question resistance, we experience in daily life. We simply go on seeking relief in the hope as if resistance, discomfort (suffering) will be undone or has been undone by the relief and we will land on a stable ground. Can we see that no relief can become stable, permanent? It is only when we see that what we call suffering is only psychological discomfort, if not immediate physical danger or acute physical pain. Not to gloss over this discomfort is the key. Whole energy is concentrated here. One begins to see 'what is True'.

Issue is not God, but that you face resistance in daily life. Resistance means – your comfort zone is disturbed by sadness, uncertainty, confusion, anger, fear and so on. Can you stay with this disturbance, this pain, this irritating feeling? If you can do this, you have touched the current of life - you are one with the evolutionary process of life. All complications arise as we have separated work as separate from life, from enjoyment. Instead of enjoying, we want to settle in the relief from compulsions, irritations, discomforts. Any fear, uncertainty, irritation we experience – religious-spiritual or other such ideas are ready to console you. Fusion does not take place.

Mind is exposed to discomfort and uncertainty all the time. You forget this and think that certain possessions, relations or ideas including religious-spiritual can take you away from discomfort and uncertainty. When you are confused, angry, fearful, anxious – be okay with this fact, the whole energy is concentrated here. To seek relief, stability through solacing, consoling words is psychological laziness. You can act or not act and see what happens is the endless drama. Discomfort and uncertainty, if not glossed over, bring you to the point of alertness. You begin to see certainty; begin to see ‘what is True’.

We are carried away by ideas including religious-spiritual as if there is some secret which will give control of our lives to us and we can enjoy stability, stable relief, stable pleasure and so on. Instead, can we be pragmatic and see the format of life. Things do not happen as you wish. Thoughts, apprehensions do come to your mind, which you do not like. It means the ‘wishing entity’ is not in control. It means ‘wishing’ and ‘happening’ are related in a frictional mode. Can we bear this friction without any explanation? Every moment, two possibilities exist. Something ‘you want may happen. It may not happen’. One begins to fight way, cover up, undo, adjust with the possibility of ‘may not happen’. Your energy is dissipated in fighting away this possibility. Can you see the futility of fighting away this possibility arising in your mind? You are on the total ground. Now your will, what you want becomes clear. Instead of feeling the uneasiness any problem creates within us, we seek diversion by fanciful ideas like, it is all one’s fate, future will be alright, God will take care and so on or we seek relief by entertainment, intoxications to bypass the feeling of uneasiness. To become aware of the diversion is to stop it. Now you and the world is seen as one process. You are held in a no escape position in respect of what is happening, what you face. You begin to see 'what is True'.

. There is no one thinking. (when you say-‘I am thinking’, this itself is thinking and not the source of thinking) If one sees this, the idea of controlling, moulding the thinking process drops. The Original ground takes over. Thought can refer to anything. It can name anything, describe anything. It can not know its own source. It can not know from where it is arising. Any reference about its source will be a thought. You are at the end of the mind. You can not go further. Thinking can not be used to arrive at-'why something happened which you do not like' or find irritating. Function of thinking is to describe, express. When you see this, you are on the magical ground. You are attuned to supreme relaxation. Any objective thing of the world including our body or DNA structure is not the sign of one’s being alive. The sign of being alive are ‘feeling’, and ‘naming’, thinking. The ‘feeling’ of friction-‘things are okay’, ‘things are not okay’-is the sign of being alive. Brain can not feel stably okay; an unending friction is in motion. Human being means-it can ‘feel’ the friction that things are ‘okay’, ‘things are not okay’. He is also Aware that he is feeling this friction, pain. This friction is the ground of unending evolution. Complaining, blaming, feeling guilty does not let one feel the friction. Awareness (supreme relaxation) and unending friction is a singular process, self-sustained process. The illusion escapes the friction by seeking stable relief, stable pleasure through possessions, relations, ideas-hence dullness, decay, death. Becoming aware of the illusion is to drop it-is to experience the wonder of automation of the whole process.

.. ‘You’ is the total field. You and the world is one process. But I face resistance pain-(any thing you dislike) and uncertainty? How can I be total? The resistance you feel is also within the totality. Once you absorb the resistance without any explanation-the total field is realized. You are thinking as if you will come to some clear, definite explanation in respect of ‘what is happening or what you face’. You are carried away by the relief promised by these explanations-including religious-spiritual. Or you simply ignore this question or this question does not arise in you, you remain in your comfort zone. Unless your relief, your comfort zone is shattered, unless you see that nature of things is such from moment to moment and there is no way to understand by ANY explanation-‘what is True’ is not revealed.

It is quite easy, convenient to slip into some stress relieving, tension relieving device or strategy-music, entertainment, meditation, medication, religious-spiritual activities and so on. Any device, any strategy you choose boomerangs as brain can not stay relieved, stay pleased. One may become addicted to the device or strategy. Instead of slipping into diversions-can one stay with the discomforting feeling and see the emergence of action? The Original may touch you here. This is not to be applied but just watching the process is the key. Stress-relief is seen as an auto process. Now your actions are charged with passion and not bound to compulsion-relief pattern. We come under the illusion as if result or tomorrow will make us free, free from compulsion, free from confusion, free from discomfort we are experiencing now and stability will come. Can we feel rested now (when there is no immediate danger to life, as any confusion, compulsion, discomfort is psychological discomfort only) and see the emergence of action, see the emergence of imagination. The Original has touched you. If only for once you touch anger, fear, anxiety, sorrow without any escape, without any explanation, justification, condemnation-you touch the fluid ground, total ground. No philosophy can now entice you. You have touched the current of life. You are under the illusion as if sorrow and so on are to be covered up or glossed over or thrown away. Nothing can be thrown out of the mind. You are not feeling sorrow, anger, fear, anxiety (uncertainty) but simply trying to throw them away from your mind. This is what causes the trouble.

We have been fed by advices, teachings- Do not be angry. Do not be sad. Do not have anxiety. Do not have fear and so on. As if you willingly feel anger, anxiety, sadness, fear and so on and by some advice or practice reverse will happen or these will not arise in future. All attempts to cultivate non-anger, happiness, non-anxiety, non-fear add to frustration as you are quelling your energy by solaces, explanations. Anger, sadness, anxiety, fear are normal human reactions on facing something you do not like or something you do not want to happen, happens or on facing uncertainty. Any such situation is psychologically uncomfortable only as your life is not in danger. Can you notice this? Can you see that you can not throw this discomfort out of your mind? You try to throw it by objecting to your feeling of anger, sadness, anxiety, fear and so on. Once you absorb this discomfort without any explanation-your whole energy is concentrated. Transformation has happened. You are on the Original ground. Now any action is relaxed, conscious.

By what laws, the System of the Universe is operated? Can you see that this question is the product of thinking? Any answer will simply satisfy or dissatisfy you. It can not go further. Can you see that thinking is not the total field? Senses see, touch, listen and so on, breathing in and out is going on, there is memory and imagination and thoughts arising in the mind. Anger, fear, anxiety, happiness are the expressions of Life to keep the mind alive. This is the format of Life. Can one see that there is nothing beyond this? There is the field of senses (touching, seeing and so on)-bound by time and space and the field of memory and imagination, thinking-fluid, not bound. The field of senses is being renewed every moment. This is total field -the field of senses and the field of memory and imagination. The friction between this moment and the next gives momentum to life. The friction is unending. When you are relaxed in this moment, whatever be the situation, the image for the next moment (comfortable to you) is automatically created. This is the natural momentum on which brain works. When you are not at rest with this moment, you are trying to fix the next moment to your pattern of satisfaction. You miss the automation. You become busy in fighting an illusory battle. Then what about ideas about God and so on? You may name the total field as God but the total field is not an object or something, you can refer. You can not separate yourself from the total field and discuss about the total field. You and the world is a singular process, is the total field. What ever comes before you including stars, galaxies and so on can not be the source. It is an object. It can have some use, function. To come to the source, the subject (you) is also to be included. To see that subject-object is a singular process rests all seeking.

What is the remedy for all the problems? To clearly understand the fact that the feeling of uneasiness and uncertainty is part of natural functioning of the brain. You are on the Original ground. Any practice, device to suppress it, to escape it leads to dullness, decay. When any unfavourable, unpalatable situation arises-brain gathers energy to meet the situation. This gathering of energy may take the form of stress, anxiety, fear or confusion. It labels the gathering of energy as stress, fear, anxiety or confusion as it is in relief mode, sleep mode, it is not prepared for this rising. Can the brain be so activated that it is always in ‘alert mode’? You are in the limitless field. You are on the Original ground. Nothing can be ‘thrown out’ of the mind including any feeling like fear, confusion, anger. The illusion has taken over as if any discomforting feeling can be removed from the mind or covered up by pleasant, comforting feeling. To see this is to be on the total ground. Transformation happens. You are attuned to supreme relaxation with unending friction to operate.

Your daily life provides data to find ‘what is True’. Can you notice that you are essentially trying to satisfy yourself that everything will be alright in future or praying-if you feel okay, satisfied now-life should go on as it is? Can you notice that you are seeking illusory comfort? When noticed, seeking drops-energy is freed from this seeking- You are open to wonder now. We think as if we can keep ourselves engaged in some activity as compulsion (work or job) and find ‘what is True’. When work or job is treated as compulsion-any activity as spiritual, religious becomes a relieving activity against compulsion. One remains tied within the pattern of compulsion and relief. Unless compulsion is dropped or relief is disregarded-‘what is True’ is not revealed. The fused state does not touch one. There is actual talk about some actual steps, actual activities. There is satisfying talk also-if I had more knowledge, power, capacity-I had done better; things will be alright in future; God will take care; if it happens-it is okay, otherwise also it is okay. Satisfying talk takes away natural friction, natural wonder in any action. When you notice this fact, energy is concentrated. You are open to all possibilities.

You are connected to the Original when you are not able to shift responsibility of your actions upon any comforting idea or some one else. You are ready to bear pain and pleasure of the outcome. If you are interested in what you are doing-you need no philosophies about life. You are on the Original ground. Philosophies about life are required when you are not interested in what you are doing, in what is before you or you escape ‘what is’ by complaining, blaming, feeling guilty. Any discomforting situations you face- loss, defame, rejection-your life energy is not affected. If your life energy is in danger-you will act first to save your life energy and then will talk about anything. Noticing this fact puts you on the Original ground. Liberation is release of energy tied within the pattern of compulsion and relief. Compulsion is superficial interest or compulsive interest in any thing, in any activity, in any work. This has to be essentially countered by some relieving activity, relieving interest for the brain to sustain. When noticed clearly, either relief is disregarded or compulsion is dropped. One is in the fused state.

Every moment, two possibilities exist. Something you want may happen or it may not happen. That is, positive and negative thoughts are there. In unawareness, either the negative thoughts remain unnoticed or one covers them up by ideas, explanations. One is worried, tense not because negative thoughts are there but because one wants to push away these thoughts. When you are comfortable with any irritating feeling, ambiguity, uncertainty-the release of pleasure hormones (dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin) and stress hormones (cotrisol, adrenaline) is balanced. The balancing of these hormones renews the cells of body and brain. You are open to wonder now. You are on the Original ground. Unless you are in immediate physical danger or acute physical pain-all discomforts are psychological discomforts, even if it is extremely difficult situation. Unless you are in actual physical danger, you are essentially at rest. This rest is always with you. This rest connects you to the ground, to all possibilities. Living is continuous unpredictable change. Not being comfortable with this unpredictability is fear and seeking relief (illusion) from this fear. Seeing the inevitability of unpredictability is supreme relaxation with unending friction.

Why we raise the issue of God, meditation, soul, awareness, liberation, enlightenment? Because we want stable relief. We want relief from facing pain and uncertainty. We want relief from facing confusing choices. We want relief from facing irritating, discomforting situations. Unless you are stuck up and see that this relief is illusory, the pressure to see ‘what is’ does not get build up-‘what is True’ is not revealed. We have gathered so many concepts about life that we conveniently miss the Fundamental Understanding, miss integration with the life energy. We are carried away by religious, spiritual ideas about God, soul, Enlightenment; by solacing ideas like ‘have positive thoughts’, ‘forgive others’, ‘be selfless’; by scientific and economic explanations that ‘one day things will be fine’, ‘tomorrow holds the key’. All these ideas, explanations push us away from ‘what is’, give us an escape from integrating with the life energy. We wish to overlook the discomfort, irritation, we experience in daily life. Can one see that all irritation, discomfort we experience is psychological only-if it is not immediate physical danger? Can one see that there is no place to throw it out of your mind-even if it is extremely difficult situation? If one sees this fact, supreme relaxation takes over. One is one with life, all issues drop. One is the creative impulse of the Universe now.

Truth or God or Original is not knowledge. It is totality expressing from moment to moment-you and the world as a singular process-including what you like-dislike, fear or cherish. It is not knowing ‘what is’ that delivers but seeing ‘what is’ ‘as is’ without any escaping mechanism that connects you to the ground. Unless any support, any relieving mechanism devised by you in the form of guru, God or some philosophy crumbles down-you can not see ‘as is’, you can not face ‘as is’. This seeing, this facing is discomforting for the mind. If somehow you are able to absorb this discomfort-you are one with the mystery of Existence. You are on the Original ground. You are aligned to the Source when you do not run away from any irritating feeling-you experience in daily life. The resistance, the discomfort brain can absorb attunes it to power, to capacity, to all possibilities. One is attracted by the ideas ‘life should be stress free’, ‘life should be tension free’ or one takes to religious, spiritual activities as one has settled oneself (compulsively) in one’s job, in one’s work. Unless one sees that one has bound oneself to the comfort of ‘attractive ideas’-the pressure to see ‘what is’ does not get build up. The fused state does not touch one.

One is escaping the psychological discomfort (pain and uncertainty) by depending upon temples, gods, entertainment, intoxications and so on. As if this discomfort will be removed from the mind, one will get stable relief (apart from immediate physical danger, all fears, anxieties are psychological discomforts). Can one see this? There is no way to escape or undo this discomfort. Seeing this clearly lets one absorb the discomfort ‘as it is’. The whole energy is concentrated. One is attuned to supreme relaxation with unending friction to operate. The illusion keeps one stuck up as if unpalatable thoughts can be removed or undone. Unpalatable thoughts are those, which generate fear, uncertainty about tomorrow, about others. As of now, when you are otherwise safe and secured, seeing that you can not do anything about unpalatable thoughts is the mega step. It is concentration of total energy. When unpalatable thoughts are absorbed ‘as they arise’-whatever action (or no-action) emanates is good, positive, complete. Mind instantly finds some comforting idea, solacing idea to cover up, escape the unpalatable thoughts; the ground of consciousness is not touched.

You do not want God. You do not want Peace. You do not want Awareness. You do not want Liberation, Enlightenment. What you actually want is to fulfill your requirements, desires (almost effortlessly). What you want is-no problems tinkering your mind or the problems should be resolved as you want. Uncertainty makes you anxious, stressed. Can one clearly see this as a fact? Instead of seeing what one actually wants, one is busy in seeking stable relief through addition to possessions, relations, ideas. This relief is the illusion. Even when we get what we want, we remain perturbed as our demand for stable relief is not met. We never question this demand. We are busy in fixing relief in respect of possessions, relations, ideas. This relief can not be stabilized. When the illusoriness of this relief is seen, what you want in material, physical terms from moment to moment becomes clear. This clarity is one’s connection to the self-sustained ground. Brain operates as desire and fulfillment from moment to moment. You can not end the desire nor can you reach at a fulfilled state. Instead of seeing this fact, mind comes under the illusion as if it will get relief from this process. Some desire (lack, shortage) will emerge as brain understands, operates only in terms of desire and fulfillment. Seeing this clearly, puts you on the self-sustained ground. The illusion keeps one trapped, waiting as if fulfillment of any desire (addition to possessions or the idea of God) will take it to a fulfilled, satisfactory, stationary state. One can think, plan, calculate. The error is that one wants to feel comfortable about result, about future now. The need for securing this comfort saps one’s energy. When this comfort is seen as illusory, imagination becomes clear. One sees living as a play between imagination and reality-the total field.

One uses the word God or takes shelter in the ideas about God as if it refers to something. As it does not refer to anything-one can mould the word as one likes, hence religion as organization is born. Unless we are clear that God does not refer to anything-we will be fighting in the name of religion, ideology, ideas about God. One is not interested or superficially interested in one’s work or what one is doing as one has invested one’s hopes in temples, gods or other comforting theories-the pressure to understand, the pressure to see ‘what is’ does not get build up. Understanding ‘what is’ means to actually feel the jerk of the whole reactive mechanism of the organism such that the interaction of the senses and the outside world leaves nothing undigested. The interaction is complete. If interaction is painful, I acknowledge it, not verbally but actually. I do not project that it should not have happened. The acceptance of the interaction is complete. The acceptance is not dull. It is ‘live’, actual, vibratory. If we feel satisfied in deprecating evil, we bind ourselves to evil. If we do not feel superior while dealing with evil in any manner, we establish no relationship with evil. Evil evaporates. Then simple operation of facts does not trouble us. Law defines right-wrong for functional purposes. Apart from legal bindings, one is free to choose. It is this freedom that lets one find 'what is True'. Any imposition (apart from law) or teaching to stress something as 'good' creates further conflicts in the society. When one is clear on this, evil starts evaporating.

‘What you face’ or ‘what is happening’ is not under your control-this is simple to understand. Realisation happens when you notice that what you ‘feel’, ‘experience’ is also not under your control. As digestion of food, circulation of blood, breathing in and out and so on are non-volitional processes-whatever arises in the mind, the thinking process, is also non-volitional. Thinking, memory, imagination arise in the fluid field, limitless field. There is ‘no one’ thinking. There is ‘no owner’ of thoughts. The function of thinking is to describe, name something. It comes under the illusion as if it desires, decides, causes movements. Then who desires, decides, causes movements? There is processing, the movement going on in everything including the brain. Even in stationary things, in every material, in every natural thing. What you feel (anger, anxiety, confusion and so on) from moment to moment is also a process, a movement. Who is controlling, operating this movement? Or How to set right this process? This question itself is a movement, a process. There is no way, you can separate yourself from the process. There is only the process, the movement. Thought can give some name to the mechanism; it is not the controller of the mechanism. Then who controls the mechanism? Again it is a thought coming out. Suddenly, the self-sustained mechanism is recognized. There is seeing, there is listening, there is impulsion to speak, there is feeling of touch and so on. Can one notice that there is no one who sees, listens, speaks, touches? But I am seeing, listening, speaking, feeling the touch and so on? This is simply a thought arising in the mind. Suddenly, the ground is realized.

Unless one is clear as to what one wants by addition to possessions or by ideas about God, spiritual practices, talks-one can not find ‘what is True’. As one moves in life, one becomes aware that one is seeking complacency through possessions, relations, situations, ideas-including the idea of God. It is a hit on the mind to know that what one is seeking is not available. Brain is sustained by ambiguity and uncertainty. One is now attuned to supreme relaxation, to all possibilities. The feeling of friction-that things are okay (pleasure) and things are not okay (pain, uncertainty) is the sign of being alive. Any striving for stable relief through possessions, relations, situations, ideas is exhausting, leads to decay. Stable relief means the momentum of ‘tension-relief’ will be over. The momentum of ‘tension-relief’ is life energy itself, is the self-sustained ground. Can one see the arising of thoughts-‘things may not happen as ‘I’ wish’, ‘something untoward may happen’, ‘I’ may be cheated’ and so on? The uneasiness, these thoughts generate in the form of fear, insecurity can not be dealt with, escaped or undone. Clearly seeing this puts you on the self-sustained ground.

Fundamental understanding-spirituality- is not an application to obtain results. It is a response to your seeking, to your inquiry, to your question. It is your seeking, your inquiry, your question that explodes as Truth. Your pain, your inquiry, clarity and intensity as to ‘what you want to know’ works as an arrow to find ‘what is True’. Otherwise one is simply satisfied by answers, explanations, teachings and waits as if these will place one comfortably in life as if resistance of ‘pain and uncertainty’ will be removed from the mind. This is the trap in which one is caught. Mind operates through resistance (disturbance) and satisfaction (adjustment). Whatever you do, see, discover can not put you in satisfied state. Your operation is through resistance and satisfaction. Resistance will trouble you time and again to let you explore, explore the ground where the auto process of resistance and satisfaction happens. Fear, anxiety, confusion are natural reactions of the brain on facing an uncertain situation. These are compounded and trouble you when you do not recognize this fact, this resistance of uncertainty. It is this resistance that keeps the brain alive and attuned to the process of unending evolution. Whatever knowledge, possessions-you may have, you can not ‘become’ psychologically secure, certain. Whatever you may possess, the resistance of uncertainty can not be undone or covered up. To see this is your attunement to supreme relaxation, to complete security. Experiencing from moment to moment becomes complete-the touch of the Original may happen.

One does not gather courage to find ‘what is True’ as one does not bear the discomfort of going wrong. One is waylaid as if some one else can give a ready made solution, formula. One is trapped in fitting life into answers, explanations, teachings dished out by others. Unless this dependence, this burden, this hope is deleted from the mind 'what is True' is not revealed. The basic human predicament stems from the notion that ideas, explanations will give one stability or can give stable relief to the mind. One waits for stable relief through goals, planning, controls. This wait makes as if now is compulsive, secondary and future is primary. The paradigm of wait never changes. Unless one sees the futility of wait, the original current does not touch one. Now any action (or no-action) is relaxed and conscious. Recognise the feeling of uneasiness due to any situation. Just be comfortable with the feeling of uneasiness. And see what happens. You can run away from the problem, but not from your feeling. This seeing opens the door. By talking about God, Enlightenment, liberation, comforting quotes and so on, one is seeking a way out of pain and uncertainty of normal life. Unless one absorbs pain and uncertainty ‘as it is’, there is no chance of finding the ‘True’ (all pain and uncertainty is psychological discomfort, if it is not immediate physical danger).

Any untoward happening, loss, any difficult situation are psychological discomforts. Apart from immediate physical danger, all discomforts are psychological discomforts. Can one see that one is trying to escape the uneasiness of the situation by ideas, explanations? As if the irritating situation should not be there. Hope as an escape from 'what is being experienced now' is bondage to pain. Any form of allurement by addition to possessions, or by some practice or idea that future will be satisfactory is the bondage. The allurement simply covers up psychological discomfort, uneasiness, you are experiencing now. When you notice this, your whole energy is concentrated. You are on the self-sustained ground. We take as if confusion, ambiguity experienced on facing any situation can be side tracked, undone by the solution of the problem. We want to come out of the feeling of confusion, ambiguity by the solution. We act as if relief of result, tomorrow would end the pain of acting from compulsion, conflict, uncertainty. This pain, this friction can not be escaped. Now action itself is rest, relief. You are on the Original ground. There is only one step; you have to disregard silently, spontaneously the relief offered by books, gurus, techniques, various entertainments and so on against your present state, which you call unsatisfactory. Psychological self-sufficiency develops when one is not carried away by any relief or when one does not complain, blame, explain away any discomfort. Psychological self-sufficiency is concentration of total energy, is one’s connection to the whole. One takes to prayers, ideas about God or some other controlling principle when one is otherwise safe and secured but wants to remain secured in the future or wants to insist that things should happen in one’s defined way. This gives (the illusion of) psychological safety about future, about something which is not now. Can one see that this safety, security is illusory? When you see this, you are on a fluid ground. Your imagination has meaning now.

It is only when one does not attend to what one is doing with complete interest that one needs diversions through religious, spiritual activities, talks. Why one does not attend to what one is doing with full interest? One does not bear ‘pain and uncertainty’ as it arises. Escapes give (illusory) comfort. One is trapped. Mind is continuously stirred by positive, negative or neutral impacts. Now the illusion sees as if by religious, spiritual activities, by ideas about God or some other controlling principle-there will be stable relief from the impacts or the impacts will stop at positive. Can one see the fallacy of this hope? The error is that we want ‘to deal with’ the uneasiness that is generated when we face loss, defame, rejection. We fear touching this sense of uneasiness. To let this uneasiness be is to connect to the Original energy. We are always making efforts to seek relief from this sense of uneasiness. Hence dullness, decay. Nothing can exist without contrasting features, day-night, hot-cold, without gap between polarities, today-tomorrow, action-result, without contrasting feelings, pain-pleasure, stress-relief. When you see that there is no escape from duality, no relief from the bondage of duality-you are attuned to supreme relaxation.

The error has taken over the present mind that it should feel happy, stay pleased, stay relieved all the time as if feeling of confusion, fear, any uneasy feeling does not belong to it. If you notice this insistence of the mind, it drops- the Original energy touches you. You are attuned to supreme relaxation with unending friction to operate. When you allow your feelings (fear, confusion, anxiety) as they are, your imagination becomes clear, what you want becomes clear. We are carried away as if thinking can change or undo any feeling. ‘I do not want to be angry’. ‘I want to be free from fear’. ‘I want to be happy’. And so on. The words create an alienation as if there is a separate entity to reject or retain. Can you notice this? This noticing is the concentration of total energy. We are enamoured as if pleasure, relief, feeling good are independent experiences as if they can stay or stabilize. Pleasure, relief, feeling good is dependent upon, is essentially experienced against pain, stress, some uneasy feeling. Once one notices the connection-pleasure, relief, feeling good are not registered in the brain as something stable. The touch of the Original happens. We want to rest through the relief, pleasure offered by entertainment, intoxications, addition to possessions, relations, holidays against the compulsion of work. Mind registers this relief, is inclined as if this part (entertainment and so on) is actual life. We forget that this pleasure, relief is dependent upon, is because of compulsion experienced at work. Once we see the connection, the fused state takes over.

Mind is under the illusion that logic or any definition can bind the Reality. When it faces something, which is beyond logic, beyond liking, beyond its comfort zone, it rejects by giving expressions like anger, anxiety, stress, fear, confusion, guilt and so on. These expressions give a touch of the non-linear, something beyond logic. Anxiety, fear, confusion, stress means there is an unbridgeable gap between ‘now’ and future, tomorrow, between ‘now’ and your imagination. Can you see this gap? Can you be comfortable with this gap, this unknown margin? This comfortableness instantly connects you to the limitless field-the field of all possibilities. You can be relaxed, creative only when you are comfortable with this gap, otherwise one is trying to solace the mind to cover up the unpleasantness, one is experiencing.

One talks about suffering, discusses about suffering as one is safe and secured now. If one is actually in trouble, either one takes action or bears the discomfort, the trouble is giving. Talk about suffering is only to escape the discomfort, to remain in one’s comfort zone, to remain in one‘s pattern of seeking relief by acting compulsively. The idea of suffering is created by the religion or through poetic expressions. No one can be essentially unhappy unless one is in immediate physical danger. And when one is in danger, there is no time to think, talk, discuss. There is immediacy of action. What one calls unhappiness, suffering is simply psychological discomfort due to something not happening as you wish or when you are unable to cover up the feeling of uncertainty. One makes stories out of psychological discomfort, calls it suffering. Psychologically, you can not have relieved, done state. Psychological comfort-discomfort is the non-stoppable movement. When you see that psychological safety, security is an illusion-you are attuned to supreme relaxation with unending friction to operate.

The format on which mind operates is challenge and response from moment to moment. There is auto arising of challenge. Mind translates the challenge as good or bad. If the judgment is kept at bay, response is relaxed and conscious. The ground is realized. There is no end to the stimuli, which scratch the mind to do, to act, to move, to go ahead. Everything arises as stimuli and response for the individual. You can not come out of this format. Whatever knowledge you have at any moment is sufficient to meet the challenge fully. You automatically meet the challenge fully, respond to the challenge fully-when you do not escape the uneasiness, uncomfortableness, any challenge is giving. It is not that challenge should not cause a stir. Challenge must stir you and in awareness that stirring withers away. All the out side impacts are causing a stir in you, either positively or negatively or neutrally. There is not a single moment when this stir is not there. The unified field includes the stirring and withering away. The field is self-sustained. Now one sees auto disturbance and auto adjustment from moment to moment, which is the movement of Life.

‘Why the things are not perfect, why there is negativity all around’-these questions simply demand a satisfactory answer. They can not go further. They take you away from the ‘action mode’. When you see that things are there-‘as they are’-you are one with yourself, one with the Life energy. You automatically come in ‘action mode’ as you have ignored the rest, relief of satisfactory answer. You see every movement as from order to order. You are the creative impulse of the Universe. You are on the self-sustained ground. One is under the illusion as if there can be a choice, which is frictionless, flawless-which can give stable relief. One is supremely relaxed only when one sees that there can be no such choice. One is now grounded to ‘what one is doing’. One is on the self-sustained ground. You are open to the limitless when you are not comforted by cause and effect explanations in respect of ‘what is happening’ or ‘what you face’.

Brain has to see, absorb the natural friction to come to supreme relaxation - to see the Truth of Existence, the Original ground. Brain escapes or ignores the natural friction on which it is sustained. Apart from immediate physical danger, all discomforts are psychological discomforts, that is, one is experiencing unpleasantness. One is under the illusion as if the outside happening or the other is the cause of one’s unpleasantness. Can you feel the unpleasantness any situation is giving you? You are trying to fight away the unpleasantness by comforting ideas, explanations, complaining, blaming, feeling guilty including the idea that things will be alright in future. Can you be aware of the fight? The fight is over once you notice the fight. It was an illusion. The Original ‘you’ shines. The self-sustained ground takes over.

How can I surrender to God’s will? The difference between your will and God's will is the friction, the uneasiness. When you absorb the friction without any explanation-the difference between the two wills drops. The talk about two wills also drops. Unless one is in immediate physical danger, ‘what is’ is always sufficient, complete-even if it is extremely difficult situation-it is only psychological discomfort. Unless one is in some actual physical danger, it is only talk about suffering, discussion about suffering. One is simply feeling psychological discomfort, trying to escape it and coins stories calling it suffering. Enjoyment, pleasure, relief including relief from spiritual activities is not singular. It is essentially experienced against pain, stress, compulsion. Brain experiences anything as a contrast. When you see that there is no escape from this duality, this bondage-energy begins to rise, fused state takes over. You are on the self-sustained ground. When pain (any uneasy feeling) is not labeled as pain, see what happens- it is movement of energy in you. This movement is on the self-sustained ground. Life energy is drained out of you not when you face pain or discomfort but when you complain, blame, feel guilty or try to escape it by hoping for good future.

You experience the life energy when you touch, listen, see, move something and so on. The hyper expressions of energy are anger, fear, anxiety, pain, pleasure, confusion and so on. Whatever you experience is complete from moment to moment. Thought can describe the experiencing. It (under the illusion) becomes busy in accepting or rejecting or conceptualizing, what is experienced. Thought is a communication device, a device for expression. And not a deciding, acting or experiencing device. Can one see that thought and experiencing are separate. This seeing is one’s connection to the Original energy. Put your hand in cold water. There is feeling in the body and brain. Now thought can express this feeling, it is not this feeling. The same force is propelling all the movements. See any micro movement to see the force. See how an ant is moving. See the flowing of river. Pick a pen and see from where the impulsion to pick comes. See a bird flying. See how day changes into night. See how a thought arises in the mind. How a bird flies by flapping its wings. How a fan moves when you ‘on’ the switch. How a computer obeys your commands. How you feel when something palatable or unpalatable happens; This ‘how’ is not a question or explanation. ‘How’ is seeing the propelling force of any micro movement. You see the propelling force when the explanation just stops, it can not go further. Here the ‘observer and the observed’ is seen as a singular process. When you are able to see the micro movement, the atomic movement-you are able to see the force. There is only that force. 'You' is only a name, a word. There is nothing behind this force. You have touched the Original energy.

Can you see that fundamental issue is ‘how to solve unpleasantness and uncertainty’, one is experiencing? If you can solve this, dissolve this-you have cracked the secret code. Can one see that all unpleasantness is psychological discomfort-if it is not immediate physical danger? Seeing that this is simply psychological discomfort is to experience the discomfort ‘as it is’. The discomfort is dissolved. And uncertainty makes you tense as you want to feel comfortable, satisfied about something, which can not be solved, dealt with now. Seeing the discomfort and uncertainty ‘as they are’ attunes you to supreme relaxation. One is now comfortable with the gap between ‘what is’ and ‘what you think should be’, between action and outcome. This gap is pregnant with all possibilities.

Realisation does not give you satisfaction of solving a particular problem. It is to question the problem making mechanism itself. Mind seeks satisfaction through the solution of the problem. It says, ‘take me out of the problem, uneasiness’. Can one see that this is a new problem? And this problem raises its head every time one faces an unfavourable situation. To understand this (new) problem is to end it. The end of it is the end of the problem making mechanism. You can save yourself physically. But you can not save yourself psychologically. And apart from immediate physical security, all insecurity is psychological insecurity. You can take action for your physical safety. You can not take any action for your psychological safety. Energy is dissipated when one starts taking action (thinking) for psychological safety, security.

The fundamental issue is not to find ‘God’ but to see ‘what Life is’. ‘Why there is pain, uncertainty, ‘why there are disparities between different people’, why pleasure does not stay’, ‘why one feels constrictions to one’s freedom’, ‘why the fear of death haunts one’ and so on. Some accept religious or scientific explanations. Religious explanations are like- it is God who is doing all this, it is all the result of one’s fate, some saviour will take care some day and so on. Some are satisfied with these answers. There are others who do not accept these answers but hope to find the answers some day in future. They may offer scientific or economic explanations. These explanations satisfy them. All explanations postpone the issue by explanations. But if you have become so passionate about these questions, so serious about these questions that you want an answer ‘Now’. No explanation, religious or scientific is able to assuage the pain of these questions. You are bent upon. Suddenly, you realise that there is no one to answer. You are Alone. From whom you are seeking answers. Now you will touch the original pain, the original resistance, the original energy on which the Life is sustained.The need for answers suddenly drops; you become one with Life as it is.You touch the unending stream of Life. You have touched ‘God’. The mystery of existence starts unfolding.